Rivkah, i dnt think the lights are ever on.. We just kinda put one foot in front of the other and stumble along, with the help of occasional flashes of light showing us the right direction! Hang in there! Lotsa love xx Cheved
I wish I could wake up in the morning and eat cereal, or toast, or a croissant with butter and jam or a hot-cross bun. I wish I could get to 1pm and pick my purse up and go down to the canteen with my colleagues or run to the shops across the road and pick a sandwich I fancy. It amazes me that people can just pick up food and drink without second thoughts. I think about how different my life would be if I allowed myself to do what I wanted, when I wanted without having to listen to the ingrained rules in my head. I am somewhat jealous of the carefree nature of those around me when it comes to food. So why not just pick up the croissant? Why not go down to the canteen? The solution sounds so obvious. If someone told me they wanted to eat a piece of cake or a packet of crisps, I wouldn’t even question it, so why are the rules concerning food different for me? Now, I am not stupid and I have a certain amount of common sense (IMHO!) Yet it is so odd how an eating disorder throws all...
It feels like an age since I last wrote on here though it has only been three days. I kind of miss not writing every day but I must admit I do not have the emotional capacity to do so! A lot of things have come up in the past few days, yet I have still felt this strange emptiness. The feeling that I have opened myself up to the world and have nothing left to give. It scares me. However, given the amount of talking I managed to do in therapy today I see that me running dry of thoughts and words is a highly unlikely phenomena - in the near future at least! Therapy. I haven't really spoken much about therapy and the people who have helped me get to where I am. I don't think this is the appropriate place to write anything in specific detail, but I suppose a brief understanding of what has helped me in a therapist/client relationship may help others to see what could make therapy work for them. I think I should start off with a confession. ...
I feel terrible that my last post on here was in August. Appalling! Sincere apologies for being MIA - have not really felt very clear in my head which makes it difficult to express anything to anyone really. But I will attempt to now. It is coming close to two years since I started writing on this blog and I want to reflect a little on the time. In many ways it has been an amazing experience. I have connected with many people I would never have otherwise connected to and have definitely gained confidence. I feel proud that I have given other's a chance to understand a little about the world of mental health and in some cases, given people understanding of what they themself are feeling, giving them a nudge in the direction towards support, help and health. At the beginning each time I received a message regarding my blog I felt a huge sense of achievement; that I had finally found something I was good at, and that maybe my future was a bit c...
Rivkah, everyone has their ups and downs but it doesn't stop friends being friends.
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Love Devorah xxx
Rivkah, i dnt think the lights are ever on.. We just kinda put one foot in front of the other and stumble along, with the help of occasional flashes of light showing us the right direction! Hang in there! Lotsa love xx Cheved
ReplyDeleteTry not to worry about the light switch, just find a torch first. And a Starbucks. ;-)
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Thanx Sam... YOu just made me smile for the first time today! Really appreciate your support xxx
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