The Crown Court
"It feels like one long nightmare; like being held under water, unable to catch a breath. It seems endless, ceaseless, incessant. The pain surpasses any other pain I have ever felt. There is a mixture of hatred, anger and guilt. Fear, hopelessness, helplessness. There are unanswered questions, confusing emotions. There is disorder and turmoil within, chaotic and out of control. And the worst part? That I can’t share it. Who can I tell? Who can understand? It didn’t just happen overnight. It happened gradually over the four weeks I was there. I had no idea what was taking place until it was too late. Too late to pretend nothing had happened. I would do anything to go back in time and erase those four weeks from my life. I have tried to obliterate it, but to no avail. It won’t budge. It stays with me as long as I live. And to be quite honest, that terrifies me. For I have seen in the past few months that I am unable to survive with it inside of me" ----------