I wish I could wake up in the morning and eat cereal, or toast, or a croissant with butter and jam or a hot-cross bun. I wish I could get to 1pm and pick my purse up and go down to the canteen with my colleagues or run to the shops across the road and pick a sandwich I fancy. It amazes me that people can just pick up food and drink without second thoughts. I think about how different my life would be if I allowed myself to do what I wanted, when I wanted without having to listen to the ingrained rules in my head. I am somewhat jealous of the carefree nature of those around me when it comes to food. So why not just pick up the croissant? Why not go down to the canteen? The solution sounds so obvious. If someone told me they wanted to eat a piece of cake or a packet of crisps, I wouldn’t even question it, so why are the rules concerning food different for me? Now, I am not stupid and I have a certain amount of common sense (IMHO!) Yet it is so odd how an eating disorder throws all...
When you are at your lowest point, like, rock bottom, what helps you up? (besides medication!)
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ReplyDeleteI was recently made aware of your blog and I read it with admiration how you overcame your obstacles and how honest and in touch you are with all your emotions.
What bothers me deeply is that I was in your school class and yet never knew - sat together in the same class but wasn't aware of your suffering.
i am so sorry for your pain and wished I could have been there to help.
with lots of guilt
a former classmate
Hi there, I wish I knew who you were so we could be back in touch! I am glad that you found this and even more glad that you took the time to write to me.
DeletePlease don't feel guilty, as I have said before in my blog, I had no idea what was going on inside me, so how could anyone else have known? Seriously, I think at that point I was in my own little world. I don't think anyone could have helped me in that head space. You should never feel guilty! Thankfully things are so much better now and I have had experiences that have really helped me understand life and people. Everything happens for a reason. Something I have to keep reminding myself over and over again! Would be great if you could email me and we can get back in touch! Xxx
Your blog is so inspiring and incredible.
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