When Black Becomes a Rainbow

Just a quick post today. I just couldnt stop myself from writing. I just want to say how positive I feel right now. I am so grateful for everyone I have in my life and for all that you do.  I wish I could name you on here, but you know who you are! I have such amazing, kind and caring family.  I have supportive and loyal friends, I have a team of professionals who are there for me any time.   I feel more confident and self-sufficient living in my own place and I just thank G-d that I have landed myself in the garden of such a kind and welcoming family.  I can't think of many flat rentals that involve open meal invitations and birthday presents! I also can't stop thinking about the Hashgacha Protis (Divine Providence) in this whole stage of my life.  One of the main reasons I felt comfortable to move in to this place was because someone I know sung praise of the family non stop.  This person is someone who I know originally from when I was in hospit...

So after a hectic few weeks, I have finally managed to sit down and actually write an update.  First of all, I welcome you to my new pad: It is a lovely little place at the back of the garden of a lovely family!  It is definitely a move in the right direction and I feel like at last something is shifting.  I was stuck in a very rigid, draconian timetable with so many (self-made) rules I had to follow. Just being in a different environment has given me more space in my head. I just need to be careful not to start writing another long list of rules! Although one can never escape from oneself, and moving around or running away is not the answer to one's problems, it is written in the Talmud 'Meshane Makom Meshana Mazel' - meaning that if you change where you dwell, you can change your destiny. Of course we can't blame all our problems on our dwelling place, but with somewhere different we can start afresh. Please G-d this move will lead to bigger chang...